Beginnings

I'm terrible at starting things. That's why these sentences are here, so I don't have to figure out how to start this blog.

I have absolutely no clue what this blog may or may not turn into. I don't even know who I'm writing to right now. Am I just writing to myself? Am I writing to some reader? Who knows. 

So I don't know who I'm writing to, but I definitely do know why I'm writing. I'm writing because it helps me to gather and organize my thoughts and feelings, which I have a lot of. I am also writing because I've decided I want to live an intentional life. Don't ask me what that means, because I am still figuring that out myself. What I do know is that I've tried a life centered on things and stuff and toys and games and food and all the other things that are easy to enjoy, and it left me feeling emptier than before. That means I'm left with one other option; to try a life centered on thoughts and information and emotion and relationships and purpose and all the things that take work to truly understand. 

That's why I'm writing. I'm starting on the inside and working out, hoping that getting my thoughts on paper is one small step towards this alternate lifestyle.

While this blog is primarily for myself and my own growth, if there are others out there that find themselves dealing with the same problems and feelings I am and take some solace from those shared experiences, then this blog is also for them. In fact, that's who I'm writing to. I'm writing to anyone who feels what I feel and thinks how I think. I'm writing to those who are dissatisfied with the life a lot of people around us decide to live and seek something more. 

I can't promise I'll have any answers. I can't promise this blog will be inspiring, clever or even well-written. However, I can promise it will be authentic.